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The Air Here is Restless

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Me / Time and Space

Over the course of my life I’ve lived in a few different parts of the country, and in these parts of the country I’ve found several places that have become “mine.” No, I didn’t purchase any land or adopt a highway or what have you. I just mean that there are places that start to feel alive in and of themselves after you’ve visited them a few times – equipped with their own personalities and […]

Time is music planets make: It’s Only A Matter of Time Before I’m Schumann (I proliferate my own insanity)

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Me / Music

Alright, here’s a story and an insane spin-off project for you (we’ll call it a labor of love, sounds a bit more respectable than elaborate act of desperation). Here we go. In 1992 I took ballet at a little studio in Maryland, and at the end of the year we had a recital. Nearly everyone who was born in the 1980s experienced this first-hand at least once in their lives so you’d think that 30 […]

Shrinking

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According to the scale, I’ve lost all of the weight from my second pregnancy. Heh, the reflection has changed a bit… so let’s celebrate the number. Small victories, dammit.

Hello 35…

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Me / Time and Space

Hello 35 – we meet at last. I always knew this would come, and now that it has I am kind of… bummed. I feel like it’s not possible – it’s too early for me to be thirty-five, it is just too freaking soon. Way too freaking soon. Yes, thirty five years is thirty five years – it doesn’t come later or any earlier for different people. And no, it’s not a villain who is […]

Deer Dance

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Today I hit a deer. This is the second one this year, exactly 100 days after the first one. It was on the first of the year. So, to reiterate, January 1st of 2018 I hit a deer and then, 100 days later, I hit another one. That’s fucking crazy, right? I think it’s completely insane… I’m thoroughly freaked out at the moment. I am also a bit nervous about what might happen 100 days from […]

The Constant Shuffle

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In this constant shuffle, chaos is imminent. The silence is precious and petrified, peace becomes noise and panic that never settles. In this perpetual derangement the kinetic confusion is punishing, it assaults my sense of center and grates at my ears, nerves and conscious. I can’t think, my brain is in this eyeless storm, churning around itself as it washes over the shores of my isolated stretches of sanity. There will be no quiet tonight. […]

Weird Stains and Sentiment

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Family & Kids / Me

Sentimentality is certainly a strange and invasive beast. It attacks your functionality, it’s a storm you don’t even see coming for you until you’re caught up in the woes of something random and totally unexpected. I’m not an overly sentimental person – I have enough trouble keeping my house sufficiently decluttered to hang onto large chunks of the past that take up space in my home and my heart. I have trouble with sentiment – […]

So, yeah… what are you doing?

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What Am I doing? That is a fantastic question. The entirely vague and vaguely personal answer is that I’m finally writing this damn thing. Apparently I’ve been pathetic… and in the course of becoming pathetic, I’ve gone completely insane. How the hell did I get here? This blog… dear Lord, I’ve been saying it was going to happen for years. I said it when I was modeling, then when I started photography, then of course when […]

Drastic Changes

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Two years ago I had insanely long hair, then I had the pregnancy from hell which resulted in the postpartum “experience” from the same place. A few days before Christmas I cut all of my hair off in a fit of rage – it had to go, I did what had to be done. I decided to just get it over with – stop torturing myself as I kept attempting to fix DIY gone-awry over and over again – just […]